Monday, July 26, 2010
Weight Watchers or Bust!
I've said it before, and I'm sure I'll say it again. Depression Sucks! I keep getting caught in this cycle of wanting and trying to make changes in my life and then the depression pops in and I go back to being apathetic, positive that no change is going to make any difference in my life-ever. And then there are the times when I try to make positive changes and the entire world conspires against me.
My latest foray into getting healthy is to re-join Weight Watchers. I used the online program two years ago. It was a birthday present I gave myself that year and I lost 14 pounds just tracking my food and points. Then my job changed for a couple months and my schedule changed and that was it. I lost all the ground I had gained and then I felt demoralized and ultimately gave up.
Recently, my mother was diagnosed with Type II Diabetes. That means in my immediate family, I am the only one without diabetes. My mom and dad are Type II and my brother is Type I. I am a ticking time bomb. I get my blood sugars tested regularly, but given my family history and the fact that I carry all my weight around my belly, I need to make some changes to keep myself healthy.
I'm not giving up on joining Weight Watchers, but I'm starting to realize that this might not happen until the kids go back to school in September. In the meantime, I'm choosing healthier options for eating. I'm incorporating more vegetables and salads into my diet and I'm increasing my water intake. I'm also trying to get more sleep and to be more active in the day. I know that depression is trying to keep me stagnant, so I really have to make a conscious effort to get beyond that and try to fight it. It may also be time to chat with my doctor about my treatments and see if there is anything else I can do to minimize the impact that depression has on my life.